I have been asked in a recent conversation why I don’t just become an atheist.
I find that atheism doesn’t seem to solve my dilemma at the moment. I have three main reasons. (Please note that I am not trying to tell atheists that they shouldn’t be atheists because of my personal reasons. I’m only sharing three reasons why atheism doesn’t sit perfectly well with ME at this moment.)
1. Intelligence from Non-Intelligence
Although I have spent countless hours talking to atheists online and in the real world about the topic of origins, I still cannot conceive of a universe/multiverse existing without something creating it. If “nothing” has ever existed at some point, it seems logical that ex nihilo nihil fit (out of nothing, nothing comes.) My mind cannot conceive of “nothing” producing the laws that eventually made the energy that produced the matter that made the galaxies and planets and humans and love, hate, art, beauty, intelligence, etc. I can’t see how non-intelligence created intelligence, how non-love created love, how non-purpose created purpose.
2. “God” Myth = “Purpose” Myth
If there was no purpose behind the origin of existence, no “creation” or “making” of the universe and all of reality, then, it seems to me that any purpose we perceive is nothing but an illusion. One example is the instincts that have developed through human/animal evolution for the “purpose” of loving and protecting our families from danger, and for the “purpose” of prolonging the species. Another example may be the Higgs boson giving mass to matter for many obvious “purposes.” BUT, if the universe was not made or created on “purpose,” then purpose doesn’t exist. I have no scientific evidence that “purpose” exists, but to me personally, it feels like purpose does exist in my life, in the world, and in the universe. Therefore, I currently gravitate toward the belief in the existence of God.
3. “God” Myth = “Evil” Myth
If there is no God, then in MY mind, neither is there any intrinsic “good” or intrinsic “evil.” Is “evil” not a religious concept? If the existence of God is a myth, then to me, the existence of evil is also a myth. Murder, for example, would certainly be undesirable to the person being murdered, and it would be painful for those who loved the one who was murdered, BUT, the murder would not be “evil,” scientifically speaking. Although I have no scientific evidence that murder is “evil,” I feel like it is evil. Since I believe in evil, I also gravitate toward the belief in the existence of God. (Please don’t ask me “which God?” in this post’s comments. That question is not the focus here.)